Doubts about sexual satisfaction

Some days I'm 100% convinced to do the surgery, but on others I'm questioning if I'll be able to cope if things don't go as expected. Besides the complication rate I'm especially worried about my sexual pleasure.

Sometimes I fantasize about having a penis and having penetrative sex and I feel like I can imagine quite well what it's supposed to feel like since going on HRT and having bottom growth. But then I remember that I'm supposed to expect a (very?) different sensation after phallo than what a natal penis would experience.

I don't think I can expect to penetrate someone and immediately feel this surge of stimulation, like people usually do when they are horny and they get to it. I don't think I'll be able to feel stimulated by feeling the warmth and skin (down there) of your partner, like it is possible with my current "hardware". From what I understand I can be lucky if I even have any erotic sensation after phallo (besides the clit that stays). I'm scared that I'll never come close to be able to feel sex how it is supposed to feel with a dick and to be dependent on stimulating my clit to get off for the rest of my life.. and it makes me really sad to think about it.