Chronic illness and the waves of the menstrual cycle

Luteal phase- I can’t believe it, I’m not going to survive this. Everyday feels like a storm that I have no way out of. I’m not doing enough. I’m not worthy of anything. The pain will never let up and I’m going to die like this. I’m covered in fear. It has coated every cell and I cannot escape it. There’s nothing but suffering, I am destined for it. I’m afraid of my body. There’s nothing I can do about it.

Follicular phase- I can’t believe it, it’s all going to work out. If I stay on this path everything is going to be okay- to be better than I could have ever imagined. All of this hard work is going to pay off and I’m going to heal. This is so hard, but I know I can do it. I am held gently by divine love. The things I want are coming to me. There’s nothing but love, I’m full of it. I love my body. There’s nothing I can’t do.