Malapdaptive daydreaming about confidence

Does anyone daydream about speaking to a stage or a crowd if people or daydream that they are confident when speaking to people and about school... Cause the topic school seems to trigger my malapdaptive daydreaming I was a shy kid people used to call me shy,silent i used to believe that and had low self esteem throughout my whole school life this led to isolating myself and i used to maladaptive daydream about talking,making friends you know about something I didn't have in real life.. I felt the necessity of a deeper connection.. a friend who would listen to my daydreaming..I do have friends who listen but I dont want them to think I am weird,and I have left school months ago...But somewhere I feel the story is not complete,It needed a better ending