part 2 to my last post about if i can be autistic even if i pick up on social cues!

i was referred to an educational psychologist after struggling in school really bad (2 more suspensions) and she specializes in girls with autism. i spoke to her and we had no intention or plan, as nothing had been discussed as the first session was purely her getting to know me. i told her about what happens, how i shutdown all the time and how i am WAY too observant and she immediately considering me having autism, and taught me all about masking (which it seems i've been doing for a very long time) and autism in girls.

we ran through a list, in which i told her all about my interests and me collecting things, to me having lots of sensory difficulties and also me shutting down and barely able to talk when im upset, how i always click my fingers, rock, twirl my hair. i also told her about me coming home from going out or from school feeling extremely exhausted and she told me it's because i've been masking.

and i suppose it turns out i'm not as good with sarcasm as i thought. i've had so many interactions after my last post where i haven't picked up on sarcasm, but picked up everything else.

but, she's referring me to a autism panel to try and get me a diagnosis for high-functioning autism, and i will update once we get a final answer!