I'm at the point where I cannot read bible.

I’m writing this because I’m feeling lost right now. My relationship with my girlfriend has gone sour over the past few months. She says that all the problems are coming from me. I’ve been selfish, feeding my ego, ungrateful, ignorant, and I haven’t made her feel safe (we’re planning for marriage). I haven’t had enough income, and I haven’t been praying enough to God. I know these are my faults - or at least I think I do. So, I’ve tried to fix things. I’ve tried reading the Bible more, praying, listening to sermons, and writing down the important points. I’ve even tried finding a side job (though that hasn’t worked out yet), and I’ve talked to a counselor.
But it feels like it’s just not enough.
It feels like she keeps pulling away from me. I feel like I’m betraying her. I feel like I’ve failed. I feel like I was never really loved by her in the first place.
Whenever I take a short break, I feel anxious, like I should be doing something to improve our relationship.
Every time I read the Bible, it feels like her words are stabbing into my mind. I can’t focus at all. All I can do is cry.
I don’t understand this. Is this my ego? Am I doing something wrong? I’ve tried to pray, but God hasn’t given me an answer yet. Every day feels like a struggle. Is this just something I have to endure because of my own actions?
Am I wrong to write this?