Wanna share something need help as well

My life is just going downhill; I can't even share anything. So now I've decided to share: I am unemployed. I turned 21 this February. I have been trying to join the armed forces since my school days. This year i am graduated now i am preparing for further govt exams... but my family environment is too toxic life mea kaafi negativity hai thing is that my grandmother is the main problem pehle she diabetic from years but now things become too serious from 2024 unki dono kidney kaam nii krti she is dependent on dialysis.. week mea 3 baar for 4 hours .. problem yeh haii i am preparing for competitive exams and ekk person chahiye rehta hain hospital mea So my mumma is involve is this but meri mumma kii mental health sahi nii lgti cause my brother also So toxic he just pass 12 he fucked up his jee and other exams also usko koi college v nii mil rhe hain toh ghar mea roz ladayi vagera rehti hain i am also not that good student atleast i am trying my father is also very toxic he iss always negative and esse esse baatein bolte hain muze and meri mumma ko i cant even tell mea seh leta huun but my mother cant jo apni mother in law ke liye itna krti hain she doesn't deserve this aur meri mental health bahut khraab ho rhi hain i have no friends to share gf toh chodho dhur kii baat mene preparation v 2nd year sea shuru kri thii but koi outcome nii nikle rhe hain iss cse appear kiya couldn't clear pre and you know preparation phase mea supportive family chahiye rehti hain i am studying hard 9 to 10 hours daily koi weekend break nii koi social media nii chlata i was always been a discipline person and my brother is just opposite .. The thing is that my father sbsea chote hain family mea fir v saari responsibility hum prr hain koi nii smjhta they just ignore everything medicine sea lekr treatment sbb mere papa krwate hain koi help nii krta infact iss chkr meri mumma apni mummy i mean meri nani ke pass v nii ja patiii she is just mentally draining to tackle these i cant see her like So yeah... aur v bahut chizen hain