can you convince me to not to take my anti-psychotics?

for context, i've used anti psychotics in 2022 and it made my life easier. i was overall happier, and more optimist. i don't remember seeing much side effects either. but after stop taking them in 2023, my life has been really hard and bad. i went to a psychiatrist, and they didn't even have enough time to listen to my story, but they "temporarily" recommended rexulti. i don't want to take the meds because i don't like the industry ideologically, and i don't want to lose my creativity. i'm also pissed of that i get to be abused and live a shitty life, and they're giving me the lobotomy lite.

"Imagine a society that subjects people to conditions that make them terribly unhappy, then gives them drugs to take away their unhappiness. Science fiction? It is already happening to some extent in our own society."

-Theodore John Kaczynski