Struggling with emotions. Me 23M and 22F

Hey everyone. my ex broke up with me due to my anger issues, lack of understanding / listening, and having no empathy. I have started working on these aspects of myself. I am learning on how to better handle my emotions and be more understanding and empathetic. just for a little more clarity, my anger issues are not expressed as physically or verbally abusive, rather me getting frustrated over trivial things and creating a useless argument over it.

During the breakup, my ex offered two paths to go no contact or stay friends. They preferred the being friendship, and while I still have strong romantic feelings for them, I agreed. Part of my reason was that I wanted them to see my growth and possibly be open to reconciliation in the future. They mentioned that dating again in January could be an option but only a 50/50 chance, even if I improve.

Since then, we’ve been speaking a lot less than before. The dynamic is okay, but emotionally, I’ve been struggling. I feel overwhelmed at times. I feel hurt that they aren’t waiting for me, and conflicted because being friends keeps me emotionally invested while also holding onto hope.

One thing I’m unsure about is how to balance my emotional well-being with the desire to stay in contact. I’m wondering how to continue improving while managing my emotions in this friendship dynamic, especially when part of me still hopes for more. I am confused to remain friends or go no contact.

Thanks!

TL;DR: My ex broke up with me but suggested staying friends. I agreed, hoping she might see my growth and reconsider the relationship in the future. While we’re still in touch, I sometimes struggling emotionally. Conflicted between continuing the friendship or going no contact. Looking for advice to remain friends or go full nc.