Tonoiiight

Tonight is the night and I (29m) couldn’t be more relieved. Go to sleep and wake up in a pure panic state every single day. Severe depression all damn day. Haven’t been happy in well over 7 months. Tonight I will walk off the chair in my office and hopefully I’m out quick. The pain I’ve felt lately was all self inflicted. Made some dark decisions and had some horrid conversations — in all honesty, death is all I deserve at this point.

Ruined a future when I had a corporate accountant job lined up when I was done school. Had my 3 kids (cats), fiance, and our turtle. Vacations multiple times a year with great family and even better friends. I was highly respected and ran circles around coworkers always. All it took was going against my morals once or twice for them to become temporarily shattered.

Bits of advice from a dude who can’t follow any of his own:

1. trust your gut always.
2. never question your morals
3. if your shit stinks, fix it before someone else does
4. be good to the people that give a shit about you…. And the ones who don’t.
5. try hard always. You can get a lot of what you want in life if you just put in a little bit of work.

I love you all. This is kind of my version of a goodbye note. If I was a worse person — maybe I could continue pushing on. But I can’t smile anymore or even be comfortable in my own skin knowing the convos I had. Good luck party people. Blpblpblpblpblp.