How do I have some hope in life?

I hope koi mil jaye jo mere parents ka kaam karle. Nahi chaiye merko koi girlfriend ya lover, aur iss halat me toh milne se rahi. Bas koi aisa chaiye jo sahi se bata de ki me kya karu. Saare ke saare chutiya bhare pade hai life me mere, ek bhi cheez ki samajh nahi hai. Subah shaam gaand marwao job me, phir muth maarke so jao. Chahta tha ki padh padh ke haat ghis jaye, but yaha toh muth maar maarke ghis gaya hai. Jhand bhari zindagi hai. School aur college ke dosto ko call karta hu toh haste hai saale.

Ek bhi dhank ka dost nahi hai. Kisi ko bolta toh apna wahi ghisa pita gyan dete hai. Itna pareshan ho gaya hu. Itne superficial log kyu sab? Kash koi mil jaata life me jo guide kardeta. Fml. 10-15k barbaad bhi karliye abh tak "therapist" me, kuch nahi hua. Mar kyu nahi jaata me abh.

Pata nahi abh kabhi recover kar bhi paunga iss sab se. 20s ka 30s ho jaega.