Anger and relationships

I wanted to kinda talk about a few different things as I dont know how to navigate them.

When i take my meditation (adderall ir 5mg i was usually on high doseages of xr as a kid) i get extremely bad mood swings and i dont know why. I get so angry at my boyfriend for literally just existing and when im off of it i fall in love all over again. I get angry at alot of people aswell just mostly my boyfriend or parents. Does anyone else have this symptom or previously did?

I also really crave independence and was wondering if any adhd women also feel that? i love being with my boyfriend and depending on him and eachother but i just dont think im cut out for that and theres this part of me that just wants to be free and have my own space because i feel like i can thrive there. My boyfriend has a hard time with that though hes very bpd anxiety coded and ive helped him regulate alot of his bad habits to a point where if im not there he will be lost or think im cheating. We are with eachother all day all night but not yet moved in together and until we do i really want to be able to prosper in my own space and i dont know how to tell him that or get him to understand that if I dont get that the longevity of our relationship wont be promised.