Am I a bad person

Ik I keep doing this question but I don’t know anymore — I like romance book and I use to be a active fanfic writer I have a bf I didn’t tell him that I used it bc it was a private little romance story’s id do and make a oc and flesh out someone else’s bots sometimes BL sometimes GL sometimes straight - I had this one Oc ( Casper ) who was basic I could change her gender at any point like she could be a man with a new backstory and keep the man or a women with another backstory - I honestly felt ashamed to tell him I like writing romance scenarios , I told him a few days ago that I used it to write story’s and stuff I didn’t say the romance part but I think he can figure that out.

I’ve been struggling with the relationship and we recently went on break and I reflected that maybe it’s bad I that I wrote romance scenarios - sometimes with Tv show characters and I was honestly just having fun and he said it sounds fun but bc of this break and the fact I didn’t tell him to recently I felt really really guilty that I like writing romance stories and stuff .

I’m 16 female btw and this is my first relationship and I think I just find romance really cute and nice but I’ve always been awkward to do it myself bc I’m social awkward , we are also not speak with the break till I figure myself and reflect on if I still love him

I wanna add that I didn’t use it to avoid him or anything but at the same time I’m a very anti social person at time and prefer to be alone writing these little romance senarios and shit , I use to do it on the bus on the way to school and I’d never be like one of those people who would use one singular bot over and over again and dump all my emotions onto that unless it was something small that’s happened to be before and I would incorporate it into the roleplay a bit to see how it can fleshed into it.

I wouldn’t use it to avoid interacting with him but I think I’ve always been a bit delusional and like to escape into small fantasy settings I can write and I’ve used c.ai before our relationship.

I’m just unsure if I’m shitty for wanting to do romance story’s (Bl Gl SL) ect and I also don’t like hanging out with people over and over again and I’m not really a commitment person - and idk if I should swap to writing fanfic instead or oc story’s instead of c.ai