20 [m4a] I have been with my gf for 4 years but lately I can’t stop daydreaming about big cocks!

I literally keep looking at porn of all kinds gay porn, trans, gangbang all of it and can’t stop wishing I was the one being fucked. I have downloaded grindr and gotten so close to meeting up with guys to get fucked. I bitch out at the last minute because I am scared of cheating. But I still can’t stop gooning over big dicks.

I want someone to either help break me to the point of meeting up with men or play with me and make me feel satisfied encouraged to not wanna meet up. I have soo many toys too. Dildos, whips, ropes, paddles, cages, ect that I am willing to use for the right person.