is it just a matter of confidence?

i was diagnosed not too long ago and all i can think about is how i used to think it’d all get better - that i’d grow into feeling ‘normal’

i find it extremely hard to make conversation with people and i don’t have any autistic friends. don’t get me wrong, my friends are amazing and i love them but it just feels like they don’t GET me when i say i can’t physically open my mouth to talk to ‘people out in the wild’ sometimes. they and my boyfriend and my family all tell me that in time i will get more confident, but i’ve been alive for 21 years now and i still don’t feel like how they do. i don’t know.

and i’m just wondering if it is just a matter of confidence and it doesn’t have to do with the autism?

yeah i just wanted some opinions from people in my same position, you know. anyways yeah