Just found this sub after completing my therapy . . .

Having a pretty much lifetime (62f) of MDD and anxiety due to BPD, I finally got a correct diagnosis in 2018. No antidepressants ever seemed to help or had side effects so after 5 yrs of therapy I was better dealing with it. That was until the free mental health program I was using got their funding cut. I heard about home ketamine therapy (had tried infusion therapy at first but that was 3k) and tried that, which was working and paying for it with no health insurance, until I came down with AFib and stopped. Got health insurance, and sought psychiatric health for bad anxiety as soon as Trump took office again. They put me on trintellix and abilify and immediately put on 15 lbs. Then they told me about TMS, my insurance covered all but 2k but if worked, I would consider it well spent. I completed the therapy a few weeks ago, and it actually worked! I'm still on low dose antianxiety meds but the debilitating depression I felt was gone. I recently lost my job (contract ended) but the depression did not crank up. I wouldn't know what "normal" feels like, but I like this new normal . . .