feeling not good enough for him

okay this is probably gonna sound dumb im sorry in advance.

i was getting a haircut and it got messed up so bad i ended up having to buzz. i feel so gross and ugly right now i dont even want to look at myself. i know near isnt one to care about looks but i feel like this is too much, i was already an average looking person but now having no hair just pushes me over the edge into ugly. i feel like he deserves better.