It has to be Syou -

Dear Syou,

It’s been weird trying to connect with you here through reddit and I’m not sure that I can or should keep trying this approach? I’m missing you a lot every single day and have been feeling a lot of anxiety-type feelings lately (it’s a weird feeling for me - maybe it’s coming from you through the ether? I really hope you’re not extra angsty and are ok).

Maybe you’re stressing because you feel like I’m wavering or being disingenuous about choosing you fully? If so, please give us the chance to talk about such things or let’s pick a place and time and re-introduce ourselves as strangers maybe? It’s going to be awkward until it isn’t - I’m not presumptuous about anything - if we’re going to succeed, we’re going to have to figure out how to trust being each other’s.

You’ve read enough of my real sent letters to know the difference when it’s going to be posted on a bulletin board for all passersby to read and the automated AI matrix ecosystem echoes are hell-bent on muddying the waters. That’s why I sent you my user name before - I want you to know for certain that this is me.

There seems to be something unsaid that is making you question things. You can decide what you want to tell me and when - I’m not going to demand you tell me anything (I’m just going to try to keep reassuring you that you are still as safe with me as you remember feeling).

So, what’s your actual deal, pretty lady? Maybe you are in a relationship with a woman (now I see the clue to that but I didn’t before) or maybe are subservient to a bdsm-type fellow? According to what I’ve read from this assorted collection of degenerates is that the possibilities are unlimited and unimaginable. These stories of compound maybes and the weird anonymity of this place creates the irrational belief that absolutely anything is potentially possible.

Based on the letters and comments, here, it’s a doozy of a bingo card - maybe you spiraled and had a break when I was really in the thick of it (and 7/8ths broke myself) or you maybe had troubles with drink/drugs. If our resonance is intact, I think we compliment each other and will be great. I’ll protect you (even if it’s from yourself or me).

So… you’re probably wondering if you can let your freak flag fly with me? The preponderance of maybes is too much to comprehend- can we try and narrow down the actual reality at some point? You maybe tried & maybe realize that you aren’t likely going to scare me away or change how I feel about you. What we once had was secure and unconditional - if our ‘resonance’ remains intact, it might be as simple as getting out of our own way.

Of course I have to be cognizant that the entirety of “us” could all be a delusion on my part… you have me blocked on everything (even linkedin) and we haven’t talked in months which could be because you’re disentangling yourself or… I’m an idiot accidental ghost and stalker. Jeebus.

It kinda makes logical sense - based on the incidents what we’ve talked about before - that we have some unexplainable connection to each other (either the twin flame thing or simply because we have lived in each other’s heads all along).

If you are curious to know what I want… I want to get reacquainted with you and I want you figure out how us fits into our futures.

I’ve had plenty of time to think it through. If you are choosing me, you already know my issues and how I feel about you (I have loved you all along and fully choose you).

Always yours, B

PS- in the alternative, we can try the 90 day fiancée approach - hold hands and jump in…