Everything sucks.

It’s been a week and a half and still nothing is entertaining. I’m at lowest of the low here. Fuck just being depressed, how about a moment in time where literally nothing helps fill the void. Movies, hiking, walking, cooking, reading, piano, learning a new language, I’ve exhausted the options. Eating and drinking makes me sick. Literal drugs, opiods and xanax have no effect. It’s not enough. I honestly feel like crying it’s so bad.