Frustrated with Raw / Cold

I did the O369 in early March and I have had celery juice every single morning (minimum 16 oz) since then, so that’s four months. I also did the HMDS for two months straight until I stopped it as I wanted to slow down the acne healing symptoms (that helped). I avoid all troublemaker foods through level four and only have fat for lunch (rare) or dinner.

Benefits: sleep is slightly better, I have a glow in the eyes (not skin bc of acne), I feel less bloated as things energetically feel like they pass thru me (despite constipation).

Cons: I look gaunt as I’ve lost a lot of weight, I no longer enjoy eating and have worse OCD, I have been constipated for most of four months with periods of diarrhea that flush it out after heavy vitamin c usage or extra celery juicing. I have regular cystic acne now (worst in my life). I have gurgles in stomach after most meals, esp raw. And I regularly feel on verge of head cold as raw foods / fruit make my body feel cold. (Cooked grains and healthy fat combats that feeling.)

Goals: regular bowel movements, no acne, no indigestion feeling after eating, no head colds.

Primary confusion: I grew up TCM / Ayurveda, and have rarely eaten raw food, my whole adult life. Even now, post cleanse, I cook most of my vegetables for lunch and dinner. The raw portion of the cleanse was really hard for me and I felt very cold and weak.

So waking up and having unheated lemon water, celery juice, and uncooked fruit really takes a toll on my stomach. I feel indigestion, I get physically cold, and it really sets me off for the rest of the day. I can’t help but think that raw fruit and celery juice are antithetical to the way I’ve lived for years.

I was open to the possibility of shifting and I am somewhat more tolerant of raw fruit and celery juice, especially since the cleanse. But even on the cleanse I was constipated the most.

My friend healed a major autoimmune disease from MM and used to not be able to tolerate raw or cold food like me and said she just woke up one day a couple months and could and now eat fully MM with cold and raw foods. I haven’t gotten close to that feeling or reaction and I’m four months in.

TL;dr: I love medical medium but wish I could wake up and have warm beverages first (he says not to heat LW in morning) and cooked fruit. I wish I could get the benefit of celery juice without it straining my body. My kidneys are often sore and my acne flares up when the constipation goes a while.

Things I’ve tried: all MM supplements for constipation and acne, aloe shock therapy, zinc shock therapy, skin potion, vitamin c shock therapy, energy work and daily meditations, making morning routine room temperate even if not warm or cooked, adding cooked oatmeal to fruit to help warm up post CJ, hydrating throughout the day, parsley shots for HCA, cutting out bananas (constipating), and the O369. Really not sure there’s anything I haven’t tried and read many posts here. Nothing helps.

I really believe in this system based so many success stories but I don’t believe healing should take this long — only because I’m not making progress. At no point has my constipation improved or my skin improved. It’s the worst acne of my life and for me shows that toxins aren’t getting released even if they are surfacing. When I try to hydrate it doesn’t help or it makes me feel colder and weaker with the raw juice.

I’d really like to make this work for me but I’m stuck on the idea that cold or just room temperature water and CJ and fruit first thing are really hanging me up from healing because they’re so taxing on my weak system.

Can anyone relate or help?