Just Realized I Was Abused Most Of My Life And Possibly Sexually Abused As Well

They're isn't multiple tags for this so sorry if this post triggered someone as what I'm talking about involves a lot from since I was little and I think the abuse varies.

To start things off I'm 24m and from the time I was birthed at the hospital I came out with slight autism and DGeorge Syndrome. I've also had 7 heart murmers but they only closed up 6. My mother after having me used me to basically beg people for food but will mostly eat it herself. Even going out to restaurants she wouldn't give me any.

She never cleaned me or took proper care of my health so had problems with my hygiene and teeth as a result. She gave me and my sibling up after deciding she didn't want to take care of us anymore. Years later she eventually told me she could've aborted me if she could.

While I was with my grandparents I feel I was always treated differently because of being special needs. They never would let me go hang out with kids at school when I was asked. They would give more attention to my brother and cousin but would just yell at me even if i do something slightly wrong. It also didn't help I was the only one left handed as well.

I remember one time we were making bacon sandwiches and as I was putting it on I was slapped across the face for "not putting it on right". There are other instances but usually boils down the same. They always said I would grow up to be nothing but a burden or disappointment.

I think i was also sexually abused in my family but i don't know if it is or not because it always sounded weird. Basically any time I would bend over to pick something up a family member would stuck their finger up my a** and then would make homophobic jokes about me. They only stopped because after a long while of doing it on day at a Halloween party after sibling saw them do it jammed a toy Harry Potter Wand behind me.

Would yall consider this sexual abuse or not? I'm also sorry for the rant and if I broke any rules just had a realization