Idk

Not really feeling right. Im stuck in getting back in this loop of constant thought/perspective from every time I’ve been in remission. I tell myself I’ll be fine bc everyone around me says I would and I have been fine and every time.

But it feels like my mind is irreversible. Like I can’t think to myself bc what I hear in my head is not the truth. It’s not me.

It makes me wonder if medication is gonna fix it.

I present myself as fine but it feels hard to focus or think about anything without the habit of thoughts that been going on in my head for years.

If anyone has had similar experiences and like to talk about it I’m here if you’re willing to