Can't be consistent because I feel too ugly to cam

Anyone else struggle with this? I find it so hard to get on because I know I'm below average, body and face. I know physical appearance is not everything but honestly feels it's one of the main factors keeping a low earner for a US model. It's ha happened before 3 times where I get my makeup ready and I just remove it and don't cam although I need the money.

I'm on SM and when I started I was making $3-4/hour back in October. I'm now at $20-30/hour. I'll keep trying but i feel like I'm the only ugly model on the site so just forcing myself to get online for now.