I’m letting fate decide things. I chose a date and certain 5 criteria’s for me to end my life.

Like the title says, I chose a date to end my life. It’s a special date to me, and I chose a list of 5 things that have to happen how I think they will happen in order for me to end my life. It’s not highly specific things, but they are specific enough to not be random chance. It’s more of a checklist for me to use as definitive proof that the universe doesn’t want me around. One of the 5 things already happened, which means that unless it undos itself, it will be checked off that list, and another one of the things looks like it will be checked off unless I go out of my way to make sure it doesn’t. Think of it this way: if I told you that if a wiener mobile driven by Keanu Reeves drove onto the White House lawn tomorrow, then it would be a sign for me to end my life, and it happened, would you really tell me not to?