need reassurance that its gonna get better

ive lost all hope and i feel so helpless and everything has just gotten so much worse. its constant now and its the worst its ever been. i dont know whats caused this but it feels like my body is just shutting down and giving up.

im not 100% i have rcpd but this is the only thing ive found that actually matches my symptoms. ive spoken to an ent and waiting to here back from her with results for my barium swallow but out of nowhere i have just gotten so much worse to the point where its unbearable to even exist.

im only 17 and i was once so happy and felt so normal. it just feels like my life has been turned upside down.

everytime i say to my self “it cant get any worse it has to get better” it somehow finds new ways to get worse. like ways that genuinely shock me sometimes bc like wtf

i just wanna feel normal again so badly

and all ive ever heard from people is “i dont know” or “its anxiety” or “take omeprazole and you should be fine” or something like tbh.

i was once so excited for the rest of my life, uni, my career, my future. and now i feel like i have nothing anymore

im so young and i don’t know why my body is deciding to completely ruin itself

sorry if half of this stuff is inappropriate i just really wanna feel heard or something right now. its been a really shitty year and a even more shitty couple of weeks.