Do you guys think there’s a difference between romantic love, platonic love, and an FP obsession?

I genuinely don’t get it, lol. My FPs tend to be platonic as far as I can tell because I’m terrified of intimacy, but I’m still absurdly jealous of their sexual or romantic entanglements.

It’s very confusing; I never know what I feel towards someone because it’s all this sludge of terrified, desperate obsession and jealousy in a revolving door of bizarre ambiguous friendships.

I feel crazy and rather jealous of people whose FP relationships aren’t in this weird gray area where it’s impossible to win. Not that anyone is winning, to be fair lol.