I know I need to breakup but I can’t do it

He’s not nice to me. He always makes me feel bad. He struggles to say I love you. He barely talks to me. However, we have been together for 5 years. There was a time when he loved me and treated me like a princess. He has done so many picture-perfect things for me. It’s so hard when the bad moments are intertwined with the good. I have been distancing myself from him and it feels like i’m dying. i’ve become so dependent on him and he’s really become my other half. i don’t even know how to go about this. i feel like hell just talk me out of it.

this situation has just made me feel crazy. i think i need professional help with this because honestly, i am nervous to tell him and don’t know what his reaction will be.

i feel like he mistreats me and does so many things that display his dislike, but wants me to stay with him. it’s so confusing to me.

i’m scared to do this.