I lied when I said my diaper fetish is non sexual

I have always been ABDL into diaper fetish but have claimed non sexual. I feel bad admitting this but I lied. I always try to be non sexual but during diaper changes I always get an erection. I have seen many other ABDL people claim non sexual too but when they do diaper change videos they all have erections too. Now I cant speak for everyone so I am sure there are some thats true non sexual. But I am a fraud. I am sexually involved with my diaper fetish. I never masturbated but when I play and put on a diaper. I do always have an erection. I dont know why that is. I feel bad admitting it. But now when I saw those other diaper change videos. For the first time I masturbated when they had erections during diaper change. Now I started to secretly search up diaper animations and art and masturbate to diaper content now.

One saw my video did call me out and tell me they noticed I claim to be non sexual yet during diaper change they saw my erection and thats when it gave me the idea to confess its just a sexual fetish. I know outsiders seem to think ABDL is always sexual fetish and I always denied it. But I am a liar as I am sexually involved with my diaper fetish and now I had to confess this. I told the guy we all have erections in all these diaper change videos despite some of us claiming to be non sexual and he noticed it too. I know like I said I cant speak for all ABDL there probably are some non sexual but it is true that we mostly are a sexual fetish from what people see when they look up the videos or check others page.

But I wont speak for those claiming to be non sexual incase they truly are. But I want to apologize for lying to everyone. I would prefer it if people please be nice to me about my fetish It takes bravery to confess all this. But my diaper fetish is 100% sexual. And now I masturbate to diaper content. I hope you guys can accept my apology. I would appriciate it if you guys comment and tell me you accept my apology for lying about being non sexual but I cant help myself. During diaper change I gain erections and now I watch other diaper content and I cant stop getting off to diapers more and more now. Please accept my apology and be civil.