any insights?

hi everyone, this is my first time posting on here and i thought i’d seek some advice and share my experience. i haven’t been able to fully AP, though ive had some weird experiences. When i was a kid (9-10) I had what my mum called a “night terror”, my sister and i were staying with our aunt at the time, and i saw some weird shadow figure in the corner of my room at night. it had red eyes and long black hair, it began screaming at me, i’ve had this voice in the back of my head on occasions ever since. I then went to the living room and began to freak out as my aunt and sister tried to calm me down, I saw a train go through the living room, i know this seems funny and like BS. Anyway, in 2020 i got super into shifting, again i never fully got there. However, after an attempt i heard a voice in my ear, a soothing voice telling me "it's okay, everything will be okay". Im not sure what to think about this, or really about shifting. But, I wanted help with AP, as i feel ive gotten close but never really able to break out of my body, if you know what i mean.