Drama

I haven’t felt this way in a very long time. I can’t help but think: would I be better off dead? After 2 months of literally begging my mom to look at my school papers or anything, she finally talked to me today. She said, “Why am I putting all this effort?” I’m forced to be homeschooled my whole life. The truth is, I never studied—ever.

She said, “Can’t wait for you to be married off so I can get rid of you.”

When your own mom hates you, it’s hard to know how love feels. I don’t know how to love. I don’t think I’ll ever believe someone if they said they loved me. I always felt unlovable.

I don’t know many things in life, but I do know that I never want to be crying in front of people, hoping someone will care. I won’t wait for people to love me anymore. I won’t expect love.

Trust me, sometimes it’s better to be alone and sad than to be with people who don’t care