Am I allowed to play survivor?

I'm not the greatest survivor but I try my best. But sometimes (most of the time) my best isn't good enough.

I don't care about escaping i just want to try and get as much points as I can. But I don't want to let teammates down as I'm strictly a solo survivor.

I'd like to try and get some survivor challenges done but im afraid people are going to remember my name and how bad I was. Then either dodge the lobby or sandbag me in the match.

I just want to play survivor. 😞