Tired of Fake People

My wife passed away two years ago. I wound up becoming "friends" with a friend of hers that she's known for over twenty years. We've been talking off and on for the past two years. I'm at a point where I'm just done with it. There's so much fakery going on, it's becoming loathesome.

We barely talk and if we do I send 90% of texts, and I don't get replies for hours at a time. Most replies are conveniently marked around times they can't reply for hours after.

They apparently hate the phone but vented to me the other day about a friend they spent 12 hours talking to on the phone because they were lonely. Yet the only time we ever spent on the phone was because they had an issue with their cars a/c that lasted 5 seconds.

Our conversations don't reach any level of depth. It's shit you'd say to a coworker you have to be nice to. I'm just fucking over it. Why do I have to be such a push over nice guy because they're my only person I can talk to?

All I want in life is just one person I can actually have a conversation with. Did I miss the memo where we're all supposed to be selfish assholes who get some kind of bonus check in the mail depending on how many people we ghost?

Lately I've been purposely ignoring them to see how they respond and shocker, no actual messages. FML.