I (22F) think my bf (27M) put me in a depression

It's been a year since me and my bf are together and it really is putting a toll on my mental health. Right now I really can't get myself to do anything. I can't even eat. Last weekend we were going to have a serious talk for the second time, but again it didn't happen. Anytime we were going to talk things out and have a discussion on what is bothering each other, he shrugged it off. He likes to act as if everything's okay.

More so, last weekend ended horribly for me. He wanted to take the bus back home and I looked wrongly on Google Maps, and because of that he missed the bus and he was just one hour late at home. For context, he had nothing to do on that day. He started yelling at me very loudly on the street and his hands were shaking, as if he was going to hit me. Then he smashed a full can of drink on the ground. I just felt like a dumb chick who is worthless and he is just with me so he can have sex because no other woman would bat an eye on him. When he started yelling I first told him to calm down and that we can fix it, but he kept on going so I distanced myself and was just walking back to my place. I really was hoping that he wouldn't follow me this time to say sorry and stuff, but he did...

Other than that there are issues that are unresolved and he is just not ready for a conversation yet. When I brought up in the very early days of our relationship that it's not okay for him to tell another friend that he was into her he said my reaction is crazy. Then he went shopping with her without telling me the whole backstory. Now his excuse is 'I was scared she would make something up and lie to you about me, because why would you believe me?' which convinced me even more he did something behind my back. In January I caught him asking women to laugh at his dick on Reddit. At first he was denying it... We went eating last weekend and he was still looking at every person passing by outside.

I feel like a toy.