43 [M4F] #online Deep, Dark, Blackmailed Servitude

Do you want every moment of your life to become so intense it's unbearable? Do you crave a state of constant panic, fear, and anxiety? If you fantasize about emotional, verbal and physical abuse, but are too flighty and afraid to really commit to it, then you just need to work up the courage to take a new leap.

Imagine the following. You wake up at 7 AM. Your first thought is to check your phone. You read your latest instruction and force yourself out of bed, your heart beating fast, and apologize profusely for going to sleep without saying goodnight. Then you slap your chest until it's red and sore hoping you've punished yourself enough to satisfy me. You start your day on edge and focused on serving.

Drag yourself out of bed, you have to go to work. You don't wear panties, since you were told not to. You get a message during your shift and have to go to the bathroom to play with yourself. You're little more than a toy to be played with. You're often on the verge of tears, and this day is just too much. You sob and scream internally.

The next message tells you to lick the toilet bowl. You protest, hoping to have mercy, but instead you're told not to be a boring, prudish cunt and to do as you're told or go back to your boring, meaningless life. You realize that your feelings don't matter to anyone. They haven't mattered in a long time. You still hope that your mind will be enough to win someone over. You constantly wonder if all the questions you're being asked about your personal life are an effort to collect more blackmail, a cruel joke, or genuine interest.

I'm interested in psychological manipulation, coercion, dubcon, emotional and physical abuse, existential dread.

If we talk it's for a long-term exploration of these themes. I'm not looking for roleplay at all and I prefer a quick-fire interrogation style chat to slow and long-winded responses. I reward curiosity, intelligence, emotional depth, vulnerability and people who know how to grab my attention.

Send me a PM with the following.

Your first name, age, relationship status, country and occupation.

Tell me why my post drew you in and what you desire deep down.