I still struggle to talk about my brother

My brother passed away a little over a year ago. I understand that missing him doesn’t get easier and if anything I miss him so much more now but I still struggle a lot to talk about him or my feelings. Whenever I miss him I get the urge to cry so I just avoid it and avoid my feelings. I do talk about him and our memories but it’s getting a little bit harder but I just wish I could talk about him and how much I miss him, even just talking about him is getting harder.