My wife(25) and I(26) have been together for 9 years and married for 2. She is diagnosed and unmedicated. In march, she had cheated on me once, and in may, i found out about a couple of affairs on her phone. I kicked her out because when i confronted her and told her i was willing to work it out, she got extremely nasty with me and wouldnt communicate on it until the day the moving truck came. Ive been trying so hard to work it out with her but we have made almost 0 communication about the relationship, what destroyed it, and how we can mend it. Its just been a month of giving eachother “space”, which i try to do, but between me trying to court her back, and her having these mental shifts, we keep talking.

Yesterday, we had a decent talk about potentially trying things again, and how we need to find a new apartment for the restart. Right after this talk, she gets distant and i leave her be until the next day, and shoot her a call about not getting back to me. She then just slams me with this. It had me in tears all morning at work.
I know she’s sick. I know that’s not an excuse for her behavior (this is the worst its been ever with how little patience she has with me. I read these paragraphs back to myself and I know that I deserve so much better than what im dealing with. I dont know. Im just hurting so bad from the way shes treating me and the way she has. I wish things were how they were when we were just becoming adults.

Im so exhausted.