Shift of my thoughts from teenage to now. Am I afraid of hardwork and failure and given up on my dreams or became practical

If you are reading this, thanks in advance. A glimpse of guy who gave up and looking for peace. Many dream of lot of things and it's not like everything will go accordingly.

When I was in school like most young guys was filled with full of confidence, still there but now will think about practicality and percentage of success and failure. When young, Was not afraid of most of the things and had only one thought will succeed , will do hard work, when you work hard you will succeed. But now I guess no matter how hard you work there are few things like luck and the time which you need inorder to be successful.

One of my many dreams.

Had a childish dream like own seven bikes of Enfield and daily take each color bike of diff model. Was thinking only need 12 lakhs at that time, if i work for 3 years it was possible with my initial salary, my parents had enough money so even if I buy no issues. Had bought a good bike in college. My bike was first kind of model in the entire surrounding village, always wanted to be unique and mostly I had different thoughts than majority. But now instead of thinking about uniqueness, mostly looking for practicality, like fast bikes but what is the use of buying them when mostly you can't go speed, or afraid of maintenance.

I earn decently if i focus a little can earn even more , reached the figure I thought,but not that happy , thinking of wlb instead of salary.

Also not interested in car was thought of owning modified car, but now even alto is fine. Thinking it as a medium of travel from one place to another. Lost interest in buying expensive things or eating in fancy things, focusing more on quality than price tag.

I thought of doing photography and travel, did decent travel, let's see I hope i quit my job and do that but now that chances are slim.

What do you think is the reason for change. Did I see respect or happiness is not but impressing others but buy things which you like and am i weighing things with the no of years or days I need to work ?. I guess I am afraid of my loosing my decent job or wrkng for satisfaction of my family or afraid of not getting job if I switch carriers .

If i mentioned this to my younger self he would not even think.

I guess listed many. If you read till here thanks once again.

Did your thought also change.