[L] I am depressed. I have issues to sleep... All situation got worse when my dearest cat is died. When I close my eyes I see her, and I suffer. I can't accept this... That I lost her forever.

Looking me outside seems I am pretty okay. Inside I am suffering a lot. She was like a sister to me. She spent her life always with me, in my room, on my chest or anyway near to me. She was "my little soul".

I suffer of insomnia since a while (not always) but since her death, I always go to sleep very late and I sleep very bad. I am tired, depressed and exhausted.

I am 33, female, from Italy. I am neurodivergent (AuDHD).

I am was "prepared" to lose her: she was old and sick. But when it happened, I feel something got broken inside me.

I kept her ashes: I will put a pic of her on the top.

I don't know what I am looking for... Only support. Kindness. Understanding.