When body dysmorphia hits hard.

Currently on 7.5 mg, I am just shy of hitting 40 pounds lost and dropped 2 pant sizes. Starting weight 220 and currently 183.8. In my head yes I feel thinner and great. Yet when I buy shorts or pants that do not have a number size I'm still an xlarge in most clothing. What kind of fuckery is this. I try not to dwell on this but its hard not too. I am happy I am close to losing 40 pounds but feel just as heavy eventhough clearly I am not. Just trying to get over this frustration.