I'm going to rehab for kratom and feel frees. Things can get better. It might work.

hi, I've posted here a few times over the last year, feeling very lost and sad and frustrated. I have been an addiction since I was a kid(started with internet browsing and video games and went to weed then kratom and then feel free. I am very lucky i didn't have access to hard drugs cuz I probably would've taken them.

im.scared, and it's hard to accept this is where I am. but I am here. I want to live a different life. so I'm gonna go for a 5 day period to start my cold turkey experience. I think I'll be taking gabapentjn(which has helped me over the last month). I have serious issues that I've been self-medixating for 2 decades! I know those things will come up intensely when I'm sober, and I know the psychs will suggest gabapentin, antidepressants, ans probably adhd meds based on my past prescriptions.

I kn9w I will not be taking suboxone. I have heard lots of warnings about it, and if I can avoid it while getting sober that's what I prefer. if I can't get sober, I will reconsider.

I don't want to take antidepressants. I'm sad about the world, I am sad my parents had issues, I'm sad about where I'm at. but I love my personality and my spark, and the world is fucked up. the world should change. but I know it won't. so I have to adapt to fit into it. I can't keep living like this. any thoughts?

to be really honest the thing that makes me want to change the most is a girl I want to reconnect with who's special. which is funny as hell cuz I have so many serious problems. but I feel something about her. I think about my other problems, i feel about her. but I'll take whatever motivation I can get.

I'm really excited to do this.