Drugging?

24f in Raleigh NC

One time I was traveling and met a guy who drugged me and raped me cause I woke up with his dick inside me without even knowing how I got there… the thing is, I kind of liked it. I kept coming back into consciousness for a few seconds and then everything would go black again. I couldn’t move any of my muscles and I couldn’t speak. It was terrifying but also exhilarating. I woke up the next morning and I was fine and never saw him again. I don’t even remember his name. I want to do this again. But like… on purpose I guess? Dm me