I got a girl I don’t know Pregnant

M 58, I have had this dream to have a child out of wedlock for years. I know it’s wrong, but people do this. I had no intention of getting a girl pregnant without her consent. At the time I was living in CT and I was seeing a lot of women I would pick up on the street. I asked girls if they knew anyone who would have a child with me. You think I am making this up but it’s true. Finally I m met Linda (not her real name) I asked her the question and she replied me! I said who? Linda said me! She said she had never had a guy ask her to do that. She was in her early 40s and already had five grown children from four different fathers. She was ecstatic. I really thought she was joking until I got ready to leave and she said don’t you want my phone number, I mean how are you supposed to get back in touch and get me pregnant if you don’t have my number. I still thought she was joking. I decided to at least try a couple of times, and see how we both felt about doing this. Linda wanted us to have joint custody of the child. She did get pregnant, but in the end probably because of her age she had a miscarriage. I was very upset, very sad. We have both moved on with life. I am sorry for the child I lost. Not sure if anyone can relate.