I just wanna kms

I really do feel like this is it. I just can’t bare it here much longer. I’d much rather be in heaven with my nan than down here. I hate it here and it feels like every day is a waste. Literally no one cares about me. Everyone makes me feel like I don’t belong. My depression and anxiety is through the god damn roof. Leaving my house is a chore in itself. I feel as though the whole world is watching me and judging me cuz people do that all the time on the streets. Im constantly told to just do it or to continue doing sh. No one really wants me here so. I’m sorry but I this is it…