AITA Asking for advice

I ‘M52 and my wife ‘F39’ are struggling with trust that is completely my fault. This is my second marriage. I know what I want and my wife is it. She’s amazing- smart, tough, intelligent and beautiful. This is her 3rd marriage. She deserves a happy ending, and I want to give that to her.

Our marriage (2 and 1/4 years) has faced tremendous tragedy and challenges. On our wedding night after an amazing wedding, i was peeing before joining her in the tub and butt dialed an ex. My wife demanded to see my phone. It was a complete accident, and I would never do this purposefully ever do purposefully on what should be the best night of our lives. It ruined our wedding night. I live with that daily.

Then several months later, I made a huge mistake. Maybe one of the biggest in my life. We keep two houses and She was on one city while I was working in the other. Two of my exes have public nude pictures on the internet. I looked them up to compare my wife. I did not jerk off. I was in a suit and remember vividly. She went through my phone and found what I had looked up. I haven’t been in co tact with any ex and have no interest in anyone but my wife.

That was almost 2 years ago. Now, anything triggers her. She’s broken hearted and angry- justifiably so. I have tried to be consistent. I have never reached out to any ex or communicated in any way. I’ve bought her things, love her children like my own, and taken her all over the world. However, trust is most important and those things don’t buy trust.

I’m looking for any advice on how to fix our marriage and repair trust. I will go to any length- we’ve done some counseling and are about to re-engage. I think this time I’m going to ask her to please continue even if it’s forever.

I love my wife dearly. What do I do?