Dying to feel an experience.

So many things feel so similarly shallow in life. People seem so fine with not putting effort in much. People don't seem attracted to details. I need so much more.

• Conversations even about "deep" topics feel pointless, redundant. People mostly showing similar skewed thinking behaviors.
• The music parties, music festivals I have attended are mostly similar ; shitty sound quality, chaining similar musics until you get bored out of it. Repetition, no build up, almost no change in mood, just music back to back. While it could be so much more. But again, if 90% of people enjoy that, why putting in twice the passion so that 97% love it so much that they'll remember it. Ehh
• Not many people I've encountered actually feel like wanting to be good at anything. So many times people contradict their promises of getting better at something. It feels like people are scared to try anything that would steer them away from the "normal" line, fuck it's boring. The human baseline is so low it's hard to underestimate it

Ive met a couple of interesting people, had rare exceptional experiences but that's it.

Lacking like minded people I am now too brain rotting, under utilizing my brain