Need help with sourcing

Am not from United States and just moved to a very remote part of Texas. There is no local gym, only garage. I have looked through many pages and cannot find an easily verifiable source for anabolics. Please help, currently only payment system of available is Apple Pay credit card due to identity theft and many accounts being shutdown. Am away that source talk is frowned but believe my situation is different. English not first language apologies for grammatical errors.