Going from being a baby gay to not??

"Came out" Around 22 thinking I was going to be shane from l word (I know cringe) but literally never got attention until I moved to nyc like last year which is crazyyyyy. So that's like 7 yrs of being gay and never being seen to now being seen. From always yearning and being a sad girl to out of nowhere being like 'dam ok' this is a very weird experience. I am learning alot, about dating and relationships which is also annoying because I keep fucking those up or some people just look at me like I am weird when I'm shy or something when it's like NO I've just been rocking this world solo for years so it's an adjustment. Sorry I'm still learning how to court and flirt (which is crazy and almost embarrassing but it is what it is). Anyways let me know if you relate and have tips. I used to win reddit awards and stuff for all the sad lonely lesbian stuff I used to post lol