After a CP back in January, every month I see a negative test is killing me

Man we were lied to growing up about how it simply takes “that one time” to get pregnant, what an absolute joke because boy are me and my fiancée trying. I’m trying to be realistic for the year we’ve had so far, in January we had a positive test (after 2 cycles) quickly followed by a miscarriage. In February and March my cycles were all over the place as my hormones readjusted. In April there was a death in my immediate family, followed by organising funeral in May, as such my stress levels were crazy high. So June was really my first calm cycle since January, but negative tests only. We are extremely ready to be parents so it just not happening … sucks. I just hope we don’t have to wait too much longer for that positive test.