I don't know if I did the right call

I don't know if I did the right thing.
It’s been a year and a half since D-day, and I’ve been clinging to hope that she would change. I can see that she’s been making an effort to reconcile, even though we’re miles apart.

She says she no longer has feelings for me and was turned off because of my anger issues before D-day. But I’ve been trying every day to become a better person for my son. I’m working on controlling my anger and healing from my childhood trauma—for him and for myself.

She told me she doesn’t want my trust, that no matter what she does to fix things or earn it back, it would all just be a waste of time. She refuses to let me have access to her social accounts.

All I’ve ever asked from her is one thing: peace of mind.
Honestly, I can't control my thoughts—whether she’s still in contact with him or doing something else behind my back. She says I want to “devour” her whole, but the truth is, I just want to feel secure.

I told her that if she can’t give me that peace of mind, then we need to end this.
Right now, there’s still a heavy weight in my chest. I keep thinking about whether I made the right decision.

All I ever wanted was for her to understand me.
We've been married for nine years, and we have a son together.

I still don’t know if I made the right call.