F22 I love destroying myself

It’s difficult for me to explain but I enjoy getting hit and hurt in safe conditions I like hitting myself twisting my arms biting myself slapping my ass with plastic or belts something about it just draws me in ever since I can remember my first time getting beaten up.

I don’t know why I love it but a good night for me is laying around naked covered in bruises sliding my legs around the carpet hoping they get burnt without pissing the dogs off .

I do have limits mainly my head I want to get off not die so I am careful to avoid smashing it anywhere thinking maybe a helmet in future to avoid anything really bad happening