am i aroace?

hi. i (f25) have been struggling with this aspect of my life for the longest time and have been to embarrased to figure myself out so i thought i would just ask.

to start off, i’m a lesbian. if there’s anything i know about myself it’s that. ive never found an attraction towards men, and my attraction to women has mainly been towards celebrities or tv character my entire life. ive never had any romantic or sexual interactions in my life, and i had my ”first kiss” with a female friend of mine a few months ago while drunk, so i don’t even remember it.

i think i’ve had crushes on certain individuals in my life, but i don’t even know what a crush feels like. i think about them a lot for a few days but then it fizzles away, and i never feel the need to be around them or hear about them constantly. i just kinda continue with my life, never had any ”butterflies” or anything

the reason why i thought i might not be asexual was because i enjoy masturbating, but in stories you always hear about people fantasizing about someone else doing thise things to them, and that has never even crossed my mind, i couldn’t even imagine that and the thought of it makes me uncomfortable.

the thought of going out with someone is so uncomfortable to me because no one has ever liked me in my life, so i’m incredibly self concious and could not imagine anyone liking me. ive never been hit on at the club, or anywhere really so that also doesn’t give me much to work with. could i be on the asexual spectrum or am i just inexperienced?